Working with the fire department in any capacity, you begin to look at fire in different ways, new ways. You see careless representations of fire on t.v. or at the movies and you shake your head, thinking of all the impressionable and, let’s face it, foolish people that imitate what occurs, ultimately to property loss, bodily harm, and sometimes, death. You see campfires differently, see the attraction of fire to kids differently when sitting around said campfire, and you process the safety of the blaze as it grows and as kids and adults thrown things into it randomly in a wholly different way than your family.
I think it is the same with Christianity. In the beginning, on the highs of being set free and redeemed, you see the world as a place where you can go out and draw people to the well of living water. You can feel the joyous addictive qualities of belonging to Jesus Christ, of being set free from the burden and weight of sin you’ve been carrying around your entire life. You want to let others know and draw them to Christ and have them come on the amazing journey with you. You are in a bubble at this time, a protective fortress exists around you, and Christ is there, watering you and encouraging you to grow in Him and to draw close to Him. You have ideas and you want to do so many things, be involved in everything your church is doing, seeking to find a place to serve in ministry as soon as possible. It’s a great place to be.
Eventually, the solid walls turn to a leafy hedge and life invades and you still trust in Christ, yet you’re facing challenges and you’re beginning to see the world through the eyes of understanding. In this stage, we find many of the overzealous sin management personnel. It’s here that the Christian decides that sin is evil, because it is, and even though the Christian still sins, they are under grace, and so they feel that they can instruct others on the dangers of sin. The truth of the matter is that what these Christians are doing is okay…within reason. It isn’t completely off-base or bad for a Christian to point out the truth of God’s word. The error lies in the misunderstanding of what love really is and what it really means for iron to sharpen iron, what judging truly is, and what speaking the truth will cost…especially when love and compassion and grace are not included in the truth arsenal. This is where many Christians are labeled as hypocrites and where they can do greater harm than good overall. Sometimes, a Christian will get stuck here. Many have. They remain in this realm, ready and eager to manage sin and point out faults. Thankfully, most Christians mature and move beyond this place.
Some Christians choose to settle in this new arena of grace and “just don’t sin in front of me and we’re good.” Here is the realm of compromise. We’ve all been there. We’ve all chosen things that, earlier on, we cut out and now believe to be inconsequential or not as deadly as they once were. For instance, this is the area where many Christians feel that they can drink or smoke or use drugs or fornicate and it’s fine because, hey, grace, and because they are much more “mature” now and can do all things in moderation and with control. Here we see the Christians that will use foul language for shock value, to fit in and be hip, or just because they can. Here we see the believers that, while still saved and still profess to be so, look so much like the world around them that Christianity in its watered-down form begins to look appealing to the most foul of sinners…but not for the truth of salvation, but rather for the lax and excused sin lie of many Christians.
Eventually, Holy Spirit gets the attention of these lukewarm followers and calls them into the passionate living as a part of the body of Christ, knowing ones gifts and abilities and place in the body of Christ and actually acting in the role that God has given them. It is here that there is no gossip or vying for attention, no back-biting and longing to have what others have been given. This is the productive Christian, the one that can see the world with eyes of grace, can be relational and reach out to others on that basis alone, and can engage with people inside and outside of the church. This believer knows that Jesus lives and is not ashamed to speak His name or live the boldly, passionate life that mirrors His. These Christians speak truth and admit to their own shortcomings, not with excuse, but with understanding that no one is perfect this side of Heaven. These are the ones that shine brightly in the darkness, because they are not adding to the darkness, but they are also not smothering other lights under petty offenses and jealousies. These are the ministry leaders and helpers that run the race encouraging others along, knowing that the goal is not to win the race against the others, but to win the race all together.
Alongside this place, there is a deeper calling to fall in love with Jesus Christ and leave the standard misrepresentation of the word “love” behind forever. Even fewer still will cross that boundary. There is something intense about being in love with Christ. It consumes your life and makes things completely different than they once were. It’s addictive and you begin to crave Him, crave time in prayer and reading His word, crave time in worship and the short bursts at church are never enough, so you create your own praise atmosphere at home. You begin to see others with eyes of love and find that compassion springs up from the wellspring within you very easily. You cannot simply drive down the streets of your town anymore. There is too much at stake to not be actively engaged in your prayer life and in your community. You find that you can encourage and pray for people without hesitation and you can feel a great deal of love constantly in your heart. This isn’t perfection. It’s a new level of walking with the Lord and one very few experience.
I can’t say where I currently am. I can say where I’m being called to and I’m sure you can see yourself in one of these areas. We are all being called to a deeper love relationship with Jesus Christ and that is what truly matters. Can you hear Him calling you to a deeper life with Christ? I can. In fact, a few weeks ago, Jesus showed Himself to me in real terms and said, “I’m coming for you.” Much as the Bridegroom comes for His bride, Jesus comes to the garden and calls us to come out and meet with Him. Are we like the Shulamite, refusing to answer the door when He knocks, due to our own comfort? In the end, she was out where she shouldn’t have been, due to her refusal, and found herself abused by the world. Is that where you’re headed in this journey? Refusing Him and ending up wounded and harmed and seeking Him in the wrong places? It happens to many of us. I’d say even all of us.
But, what if we didn’t do it this time? What if we leapt to our feet and threw wide the doors and let Him in? It would be like Song of Songs tells us, a sweet uniting and a strong protection that cannot be overcome. It would be the fiery seal of love that cannot be quenched. Dare you open that door this time? Dare you let Him in deeper? Dare you get to know Him fully so that you may fall in love with Him at last?
Dare I do so? I’ve been there. I’ve been in love. And fear and shattered relationships and brokenness have led me away from that place, to hide within the garden walls and keep the door securely locked. I do not even venture out to be harmed, either. Safe in my little room, I keep myself well-hidden and well-protected from all that would cause me harm, and in so doing, I allude to the fact that Jesus is one of the ones to harm me. But, He isn’t. Nor would He ever be. The harm that comes from the hands of others can lead to a cold resistance to Christ. Yet, as we see in Song of Songs, that is foolish. There is no one that loves us more than He does. We should be able to run to Him and be healed.
I need to stop standing in my room afraid to open the door. He’s coming. He’s told me He is. I need to be able and willing and yearning to let Him in. By the end of her refusal, she is eager to let Him in, but the moment has passed. There will be other moments, of course, but that moment is gone and the harm that follows could have been avoided. Here He comes now. Be ever watchful for the moment when He is coming to knock upon your door and seek to be let in…because He is, in fact, coming and time is very, very short.